It's been even longer this time around since I last posted. The new year has inspired me to try and become inspired. John and I have talked about becoming more active and eating better. We decided we also would like a fun vacation next winter to escape the cold so we decided that if we meet our years goals that we will take that vacation to .... Disney World! I just started planning the vacation and it is already getting me pumped.

But here's my recap from my last recap in April... 2013

April - We celebrated our two year anniversary
May- I worked my last shift at the call center (Us Air Filtration) where I was the manager. I shut down our branch that didn't work out stayed until the bitter end and even sold all of our office furniture as you may remember if you follow me on facebook.

Started a my new and current job at Intermountain Healthcare, Utah Valley Regional Hospital, Emergency Room as a Health Unit Coordinator aka a HUC or secretary.

It's amazing I love working in the E.R. ! I work in the midst of the department at the nurses station and input orders, exams and labs into the computer, fax, copy and break down medical charts. I love my job and it has reignited my passion for learning and healthcare.

The Summer-
July- Had our hawks family reunion

In July/August we had an amazing opportunity to travel to the east coast well amazing for me, my husband is from New Hampshire so for him it was just going home. We stayed with my in-laws and they even flew us out and continued to feed us at their home and restuarants. It felt like we were getting the royal treatment not having to pay for anything!
We spent lots of time in Merrimack New Hampshire and surrounding towns such as Nashua and Manchester where the air port is. Then we spent two days in Boston! that was lots of fun. 






Portsmouth, NH

King Kone, Merrimack, NH

Mt. Washington, NH
Boston, MA

Duck Tour
 
Authentic Spaghetti and sausage in downtown Boston AKA "Little Italy".

Lots of Mini golf!

In August -Went to my cousin Stephens farwell and met up with some family.


September- 13th a sad reunion for us. 23rd we celebrated John's birthday! I made him cinnamon rolls for breakfast I also made him homemade ravioli from scratch! (both for the first time) and they turned out really good :)

October - 18th
I was working my normal 12 hour shift of 5pm-5am (0500-1700) and around 11 that night I started feeling really sick I just figured I maybe had a stomach bug or food poisoning. After frequent trips to the bathroom I thought well things are winding down at work so I should be able to make it through. At 1:00am my co-worker goes home and then I am the only one in the department that can order exams and labs. Around 2am the pain was unbearable and I was stuck in the bathroom I had to text my co-worker who had just left an hour earlier and beg him to come back in luckily Robert is the nicest guy and also the lead HUC so he came back in and finished my shift for me. I finally emerged from the bathroom and decided I was going to just go home and recover. But since I told my symptoms to a Dr. I work with he said well lets check you out real quick before you go home. I was worried it may have been something with my ovaries since we had started doing fertility treatments. After a physical exam of my stomach, aka him pushing on my lower right abdomen and causing me to almost jump off the bed from pain he said you're not going home we need to admit you I suspect it's your appendix. After changing into a gown and having a fellow co-work, katie place an IV in my arm, weird... My veins were promptly filled with Dilodid (a strong narcotic pain med) and that's when I decided I should probably call my husband. It's now 3am I was lucky he answered his phone, John was very confused. "Hey hon so I am being admitted to the hospital, I'm in the ER right now." Seeing as I work in the ER this didn't immediately alarm him but after he woke up a little more and I explained what was going on and he said "wait so do you want me to come over there, cause you have the car?" Luckily we only live about a block from the hospital so my saint of a husband walked in the freezing october night to come sit by my side. while I waited for him to arrive the charge nurse Neesha and our Therapist Travis popped there head in my room to inform me I wasn't going to get any pain meds and that they were going to admit me to the Psych floor for two and not to fight them. Ha that gave me a good laugh it was an interesting experience seeing as I knew everyone who was taking care of me. I had an excellent nurse Brannon. They rushed me to CT upon meeting the CT tech Blaine I said "Hey it's great to finally put a face to the name" seeing as he looked confused I further explained that I work in the ER so I talk to him on the phone on a daily basis. I think he was glad I wasn't just a weird stoker of a patient. After the results I was diagnosed with Appendicitis and an enlarged ovarian cyst! They soon admitted me up to the floor it was now around 4am so that is a pretty good turn around for the ER. I was sent up to 6th floor the surgical recovery floor. After even more meds then had me take a shower which is pretty difficult with an IV in your arm pumping you full of drugs luckily John was there to make sure I didn't fall in the shower. After that I slept and John tried to in the chair I felt bad knowing he had class in a couple of hours. Once they took me into the OR around 9am John slipped away to class during my surgery. I was very confused when I woke up in a completly different room but they said I did well and wasn't aggressive. I had to stay in the hospital until I was able to pee which doesn't sound that hard but after they cut your insides up it messes with you and it's really difficult. I also had to make some laps around the nurses station. I got to order some food and that was pretty sweet the hospital has really good food! It took me about 4 weeks of sitting at home and daily walks to the park with my vising teacher Jen to recover enough to return to work, and about 6 weeks to were I felt I could wear tight pants and do a sit up without pain. My incisions are only about a cm wide and only one is really noticeable now pretty crazy.

***(disclaimer if you can't handle any internal anatomy don't view the photo's below they contain screen shots from my surgery)

 My very large Appendix is seen below.

 My Ovary is the white and the cyst is best seen in the 2nd picture (on the left)

The three incisions

Flowers from some surprise visitors Aunt Traci and cousin Jessica and Grandma and Grandpa Church



In December my brother Taylor was my date to my work bowling party at fatcats. We had costa Vida and played many a games. I also won four camping chairs for getting a strike :) It was a fun night!

               

Brittany and I at Jessica's Bridal shower, we also went to her Bachlorette and Wedding.

New Year's Eve we were going to hang out with our good friends Tara and Tyson but last minute plans were canceled due to ill children. So we ended up going over to Tyler and Ashley's to play games it was so much fun! It was also nice and refreshing to talk to someone who has been down the infertility road (it took them 8 years!) and came out with a baby :)

More to come soon ! 2013 was a crazy year onto 2014! Thanks for reading

It's been 9 months tomorrow. September 13th was my due date, I could have been having my first born tomorrow. But alas as you all know I am not. It seems like so many others have had their beautiful healthy babies this week. The selfish jealousy in me boils, another hard reminder of life's unfairness. I'm sad. I feel ironically like a child, thoughts of "it's not fair" and "how come they get one and I don't?" fill my head.

In my struggle I can only find peace when I turn away from myself and focus on others needs. For this reason I am working overtime this week to keep from becoming too sad. I miss my little growing bump and joy and optimism that I had and all that I lost. I want to be me again. I've moved on but reality is really hitting hard today.

I could have held them in my arms.

Just a reminder of the reason I need to stay focused in this life. I believe that we will get to see those who have passed on when we to take that journey. I know that some day I will get to see my sweet spirit who left this world before we had a chance to meet him or her, they were too pure and lovely for such a world. I am not planning on passing on anytime soon but what a beautiful reunion that will be.

March and April catch up

Wow it's been a while since I've posted anything. I don't even know if any of my few "followers" aka family even reads my blog anymore so from now on it'll be more like a journal entry I suppose.

Update since the end of February.

Went to Ruby's baby blessing on the 4th ( she was then almost 2 months ) now she is over 3 months old (birthday Jan. 11th). That was a wonder experience, since Tyson is just from West Jordan, UT the turn out of family was large especially those who participated in the blessing circle, John was invited as well. I love the sight of a very welcomed baby. It was good to see Tara's family again the kids always look so much older as Ruth said (Tara's mom, not child) "It's been a baby ago since we've seen you". Ruth was almost 2 years old at this point so it had been a while.

 

My cousin Jake got his mission call to Spain. Unfortunately we were unable to attend the celebratory call opening party. Grandma and Grandpa officially resigned from doing fast Sunday dinners cause they are tired, and I respect that.

Went running with Tara a few times, (this has since fizzled out for me anyways) She is prepping for a marathon! Her first, I am very proud of my best friend. I also started going back to Zumba, I don't think I've taught a class since though, I just haven't quite gotten back to where I was before things.

I got my wisdom teeth out on the 15th of  March, figured I'd be totally better by my birthday on the 23rd, false lol. It took me about 9-10 days to be back to eating solids and completely off medication it helped a lot when they removed my stitches which didn't dissolve on their own, they were trapping food, and not being able to Swish for a week really sucks.



Celebrated my birthday with everyone but John (he was boycotting until I was better) So Brian, Traci, Trevor, Brittany, Taylor and Mom and Dad, we don't mess around with family gatherings. First though Britt and mom took me out to lunch to Zupas, opened some presents from mom and ate some lovely soup. We then went to Draper to see Brittany and Loren's new home, super cute. We then hot tubed for a little while then I threw a skirt on and got picked up by my freshman year roommate Lacee, don't think I've seen her since my marriage almost 2 years ago, it was wonderful. We awkwardly caught up on the drive down from Draper to Pleasant Grove. Facebook makes it hard to have things to talk about when you already know everything..... So we jammed to some lovely tunes and arrived shortly to Lainey's wedding reception. We ate some lovely crapes (the most solid of food so far for me, I swallowed them whole) and caught up with Lainey it was fun we stayed until they started cleaning things up. Then Lacee took me to my grandma's cause it was right there. and due to some miss communication on my part I hung out with Grandma for a while whilst I waited for someone to come pick me up. It was nice, it's not very often that you get to hang out with one grandparent one on one. We chatted for a good hour I learned how grandma and grandpa met and it was nice.

Later the a for mentioned group met up at Brian and Traci's for some snacks and chatting until the movie (I couldn't participate in the snacking :(  ) Then we went to the movies. Well we tried, the first theater we got to we realized that there were not enough open seats for out large crowd so we went to a theater off the beaten track (the wynnsong) and waited in the lobby for at least an hour, but Taylor bought me a sweet peach smoothy so it was all worth it.We saw "Oz - the great and powerful" in 3D It was amazing! Even though I almost had to buy my own ticket ha ha ... Britt bought my mom and dad cause she owed them and so I was next in line and my dad says "hey we already got tickets", I assuming he meant including yours, I said, "oh cool" then he said "oh... we didn't buy yours.... just everybody else's..." Ha Britt felt bad so like a nice sister bought mine as well. I do enjoy the unwritten rule of you don't pay for things on your birthday. It was well worth the wait, we were the only one's in the theater, and my family loves to talk during movies so it was good there wasn't anyone to shush us or throw popcorn at us.

Almost a week later on the 29th - John and I celebrated my birthday. It was nice I'm glad we waited. I played hooky from work, slept in picked up some Little Caesars pizza for lunch then caught a matinee of the Host, I liked it and John said he liked it better than any of the twilight movies and he laughed at the "sappy love lines" I however love cheesy and romantic movies so i thoroughly enjoyed it. We then drove to PG and caught a second feature at the discount water gardens theater it was only $3.50 and saw Warm Bodies while eating left over bread sticks and LOVED this movie and so did John which is impressive because we have very different movie tastes. John said it easily made his top 5 movies. Then we drove back to Provo for dinner at Chilli's because we had gift cards from Taylor. We didn't have the best experience, unfortunately, but that's okay. Then we walked around the new Dicks sporting goods store for a while and drove home and crashed on the couched, having fun is tiring.

The next day Ann and Megan flew in to town, so John and I took the train into Murray and we spent the day with Ann and Grandpa Mac went to lunch at Famous Dave's (since I-hop, one of grandpa's staples was super busy). It was a first time experience, I'd never been to Famous Dave's before, it was well worth the lack of wait, amazing! We ordered so much food that they brought it out on a trash can lid and it was like a mini family buffet fantastic idea. Ribs, brisket?, i think, super moist corn bread muffins, a whole chick, the best fries I've had thus far, and coleslaw. Grandpa demanded we (John & I) take all the left overs which means we would be set for a few meals. Johns family likes to go out to eat like mine like's to go to the movies, so frequently.

Then we went home and chatted with Grandpa and Ann for a while it was nice we learned some new stories about grandpa then we left to go see the other grandpa Braunberger and use his fridge to store our leftovers. We chatted with grandpa a little then went mini golfing. That was pretty fun. Ann won once then John another time. I however got owned both times ha but the bantering was excellent.
 

Next we made our way to the Braunberger Easter dinner celebration, met up with Megan there, she had been at the color festival. We got to hide the 100 eggs for the little kids it was fun to watch them search. Although they didn't have to very hard in the courtyard, most of them were on the ground. Then Ann and Megan drove us home, even though Megan just wanted to hang with her college friends. We forced her into having fun with us, which she did. We played speed Uno which was pretty intense but very entertaining, lots of laughter. We McIntyre's are all pretty competitive.

On Sunday (Easter) we had dinner at Tara and Tyson's that was really fun spending time with their girls and hanging out with another couple our age. Tyson showed us some funny YouTube videos and the boys were laughing so hard I thought they were going to wet themselves.

On Monday while John went to school I skipped work again and took the train north for a girls day. We went to visit grandpa and wait for everybody else to show up, Shari, Carol and their daughters and Wayne and Shauna, we all took grandpa to Olive garden for lunch then went shopping. It was good to have some girl bonding time.  They put me on a train and I took a "layover" in draper and spent a few hours with Brittany then went home. Since I needed someone to pick me up from the train station and John was in class. I had lots of people offer but by that time I was already in draper. Went to the mall with britt that was fun.

Megan spent the day with John and I and spent the night then we took her to the MTC on Wednesday. The 3rd of April.

Only Thursday drove up to Sandy with my brother to go to my cousin Stephen's mission call opening party- Spain. We jammed to sweet tunes on the way up and talked of life.



That weekend was Conference weekend 5-7 mom,dad, Russ, Karen and their family (minus Shauna and Steve) It was fun to have everybody all together. My mom picked me up after watching conference with John. And we spent a little one on one time got some soda's because mom is always prepared with refill cups. We caught up and chatted as we made our way back to grandma's on Saturday just to hang out. John had been feeling sick and so he stayed home. We watched some old home videos of the older cousins when we all lived in Washington, they were all pretty cute Taylor wasn't even born so these were pretty old videos, the next day Brian and Traci brought videos and we were in one of them I was wearing a nice silk pink barbie night gown. My parents and everybody left Sunday afternoon so I got to nurse John back to health.

Karen pulled me aside and shared some kind words and personal similar experiences and I am grateful to her for that, she is such a sweetheart.

We also got the approval to go ahead and start trying again recently and since we now know I only ovulate 6 times a year it has been our practice to use ovulation tests luckily john found 50 for $20 on Amazon + 20 pregnancy tests. We just ordered a second bag cause in our what is now over a year over trying we used them all.

Even though we've had the clear since about the 23rd of march we won't be able to take a test til about the second week of May. Here's to hoping, our fingers are crossed.

* Disclaimer - John and I have decided this time around to wait to tell anyone if we are blessed with another child, until the riskiest part of the pregnancy is over and we've heard the heartbeat so about 10-14 weeks in.